can i get a break?

woww longtime no talk blogspot!
life. oh so full of surprises that bring joy or maybe even tears.
& so thats the fun of it, isnt it?

what is it that i'm looking for. all i
know is that i don't want this to end up complicated. so i'm taking it slow.

God is gewwwwwwwwd.
:)

baby steps.

taking them baby steps, because i dont wanna fall or make any more mistakes. i think its different enough this time :)

ohhhhhhh

this time is going to be different :)

you ,
made me out to
be like
this . i blame you for
everything . but i also
thank you . goodbye forever

wild horses ....

How unperfect

People are on the inside.
Compared to the "torn up"-ness on the inside, everyone is basically too pretty.

i wonder

when it will ever be safe to get my hopes up .

Yeah . So my dad and I had this conversation in The car the other day....cus we basically ride in the car together every otherday,
anyhoo , so he&i talk about stuff .
He tells me he understands that everythings pretty
hard on me right now BUT
he also told me that in order to become great
or something out
of the ordinary , this is what I have to ddo,
and of course not just me
but it's only GOd that allows me the endurance and etc
yeah so I just wrote this cus ....
This is part of what gets me through the tough times/days
;)



Ps writing a blog on my itouch can be pretty annoying..

so.

Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder

it's past christmas

i look like rudolph.
i have a HUMONGO pimple smack down middle of my nose.
michelle says i have a crush on someone then.


do i ?

it'd be nice.

if i could just NOT care and forget about these things.
that bother me.
oh.
so.
much.
but then, i can't just act like they don't bother me.
when they really.
really.
really.
do.

we need to stop

and think,
how greateful we should be.
for having all the things we have.
even if they may not be an expensive watch, clothes, shoes, whatever.
because there are people out there that are freezing and starving to death.
it might not even be somewhere far away like AFRICA, it could just be right in your neighborhood.
i know that there was a lady in pomona who froze to death.
we all complain if its a degree colder or hotter than usual...and we automatically turn on our heater or ac.
even right now,
it's raining,,,actually POURING at the moment...theres these homeless lying on the side of the streets in LA that i see coming back from my piano lessons...i thought of them, and i could almost cry for them.
can you imagine?
being outside for lunch for not even an hour, i went around complaining that it was cold.
the hobos out there,
are probably grateful they're even alive.

back to life.

winter break for me.
wasn't all that great.
but RETREAT was.
oh man.
it was one that i will remember for the rest of my life, probably.
"A Taste of Heaven"
@ Pine Crest Christian Conference Center

GUYS, i'm packing for heaven.
:)


wow i could just see myself procrastinating on sunday night.
tryina get stuff done,
sleeping super late.
and regretting not getting some work done before.
and my piano teacher not being satisfied with what i got done over such a long break.
i feel like i rested too much, so much that i don't wanna go back into my normal life.
i miss my school friends.
but i wish it wasn't school that i get to see them at.
and that there's no such thing as MATH or ENGLISH to bug you throughout your WINTER BREAK.
emphasize the BREAK.
gooooooooooooosh.
but this is reality.
homework.
is
real.
T_T
and so i go back into the world of NOT FUN HOMEWORK
and i gotta get 'em done.
wow, i just went on too much about hw.
i'm bored guys.
i wish i can go out, except i have HOMEWORK.
okay, i'll stop.


maybe i'll take a walk.
idk.
i feel numb.
which reminds me,
i fainted getting a numbshot yesterday @ the dentist.
i'm needlephobic KAY ?
gosh.
but i laughed , cus i knew i'd get better after.
haha.
oh yeah.
i cant get a permit.
i got rejected twice by DMV , and i think thats enough.
i'll just wait till i have the "right" documents.
okay, i should probably go.
i hope.
things.
change.