i am a sucker

for guys with dimples.
hahahaha.
i find it so cute..(:
actually, girls that have dimples are cute too...LOL

so today was a pretty smooth/good day.
as michelle cheng described, nothing got in the way...and it was just smooth :)
but for me, it was good too!
i got a B on my math test :D
andddddd everything else was just. great :)
performing arts rehearsal was at my house today.
i LOVE my grand piano.
with my whole heart.
i love the touch, the sound, and just everything about it.
hahaha <33
it's my #2 treasure right after my violin.
hehe, i'm such a dork.
but yeahhhhhh..
anyhoo, cecilia stayed a little longer to do hw with me.
i talked, she did hw, i tried to do my hw, i ate dinner, she did hw, .. but it was fun.
we really need to hang out soooon.
not just her but,
everyone else too.
i need more hours in a day.
D:
i feel old because, i have the same birthday as this one guy, .. which means i'm EXACTLY one year older than him.
oh well ... i'll be driving soon :)
alrrrightts, i'm out !

and so..

today was my dad's birthday.
on both of our birthdays, i had to go to lesson.
ALLL the way to LA and back(in rush hour)
well, we had a dinner thing planned, but my dad said we'd better stay home cus of the stupid wind.
on our way back from LA, there was a HUGE palm tree shrub laying across the road and we had to go around it.
then, i got really scared.
but we got home safely.

:)


what's up with all these people dying from swine flu?
i thought it was over..
but i'm sorta getting nervous+scared...
well, stay safe and warm, everyone.
..

time. goes by so, so fast.
do you realize how far we're into 2009?
and day by day, i'm getting.. older..and older..and EW.
i'll stop the pessimism.

you know what i realized today?
there isn't only one type of love.
or .. i should say, there isn't only one type of WAY to love things, people, ways, etc.
you can grow to love them, learn to love them, or simply just love them.
like the smell of soap on my dad's hands.
i always remembered that smell as a kid, and today my hands smelled exactly the same after i washed them.
the same exact soap, i realized..
and then i sort of missed how things used to be when i was so little.
and it doesn't always have to be something that you liked from the beginning,
some things you don't realize you love until they're gone.
and then there're things that you love the moment you see it.
this is enough blabbing on for today, i think.
the odyssey sucks.
i liked the korean comic version better.
au revoir, mon ami/amie!

a long sunday.

so i finally saw my dickkk today.
LOL wow, that sounds so..wrong.
my juneeeeeeeeeeleeeeeeebaby FINAlly came to church.
ice princess.
haahahha.
anyhoo, we ended bible study so dang late.
and i found out our teacher is a harvard graduate :O

intermezzo rehearsal was okay...
turns out my stand partner knew me back from like 5 years ago.
then i went to hyeji's house for dinner along with jennifer eo's family!
our family ate samgyupsal which i ate yesterday...but it was good seeing jennifer, i missed that girlyyy<3
i ate soooo muchhh, so i asked hyeji to walk to yogurtful with me
and our parents were sorta freaking out that it was too dark for two girls to walk by ourselves..so hyejis brother and jennifers brother came along
so we see yogurtful and its CLOSED.
and i had to go pee REEEEEEALLy bad when i walked outta the house, and i tried holding it in till i got there ,, but we ended up walking to boba time.
it wasnt that far for me, but i guess it was for the rest of them?
anyhoo, i saw my church college people + teachers there .
we ordered a LARGE patbingsoo..omg soooo good.
and some guys started smoking , so we moved inside.
we all agreed that we can't stand people smoking around us.
i'm pretty sure i can never live with a smoker.
ever.
hahaa.
okaaay, i have 2 pages of bio workbook left to do.
and screw the odyssey..i didnt even bring it home.
so yeah, fun day !
tomorrow's monday D:
BYEE.

currently under construction.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGfWVh98p2g
+ a few bagatelles by Bartok for a competition in Nov.
& chopin etudes ,


i honestly don't know how i did on my math test yesterday..
i'm hoping i didn't get like a C or below...
i'll be REAL satisfied with a B -_-



Ups and downs.. it's what makes life so interesting*

i have a heart

whether you realize it or not.

so, it's been a while since i've felt like i did today,
i couldn't help but....
but, my mom came home.
and i've never been so happy to see my mom.
my MOM.
she made everything better. wow,
i love my mom.
even though at times, she gives me a hard time..
i know she's trying hard.
and i wish i can be as obedient as she wants me to be, but
i'm still a teenager.
and i'm trying my best.
<33

Not much to say.

but loads of stuff on my mind.
i have a headache.
possibly coming down with a cold or something?

responsibilities.
priorities.
commitment.
self-sacrifice.

stress.

#38

@ saigon is very filling.
i ate the chicken and everything, including the LETTUCE.
i LOOOOOOOVE lettuce and onion :D
my two very fav. veggies! ohh and broccoli too !
and.. celery.. I LIKE VEGGIES, OKAY?!
hehehehe.

ohhhhhhhman.
i had a good time yesterday @ FIGHT THE POVERTY '09 concert<3
for some odd reason, i was EXTREMELY hyper and CRRRAZY.
but it was all goood,,
julian thinks i look like a FUNNY BUNNY,, whatever THAT means.
anddd people stuck HELLO MY NAME IS.... stickers on my back and i didnt even notice.
i felt like someone was tugging on my hair ,, but when i turned around there was no one there D:

so we watched people dance, sing, dance, sing, dance, sing, and dance(WEST CO!! )
i dig them all male dance teams noww !
they're soo cute when they dance, and ONLY when they dance HAHA!
only me & haelynn were all hyped up to meet aj rafael though -_-
when we were walking up to the life center, i saw CATHY NGYUEN walk next to us,, but i was too pussy to ask her for a pic or a signature :(...so i let that chance go..
BUTTTT, after she performed, julian dragged me to go take a picture with her.
so we did :)
she's soo cute!
theeen, we looked everywhere for AJ Rafael but he was nowhere to be found D:
then we got all sad.. and me & eileen went to the restroom....
and we walked out... to find him standing RIGHT IN FRONT US.
we were standing like a statue not saying anything LOL.
and then when i finally decided to reach out to him, he started running -_-
turns out, he had to perform RIGHT then.
and after he performed, it was so sad.. everyone got out of the room just to see him.
and the other performers had not even half the audience as the beginning of the concert..
but the thing is, he "ran" away or something.
so me & the girls were all sadd cus we didnt take a picture with him D:
the concert ended finally at 11, and i had to leave right away.. so me, haelynn, and michelle started walking back to the parking lot.
and whattaya know.. hes stadning there with his guitar on his back ,, getting ready to leave.
so i yelled out his name. and he turned around :))))
so i got a picture with him.
i'm content now :)
highlight of my day, week, month, year.
<33

pictures will be up later, cus i needa go do:
hw, piano, violin, then rehearsal!
SEEYALATERALLIGATOR
HAHA!

tired.

so, here's to becky & whoever else makes sures to read EVERY letter of my blog (=

i felt&feel crappy today.
along with daniel&rachel.
it was nice to know i wasn't the only one.
i think i'm pmsing,..
you all better watch out >:O HAHAHA.



i feel like i'm always being dragged by time.
i never get enough of anything.
and i just don't know if anything's worth it anymore.
i mean, i don't even know what i'm aiming towards.
i don't know exactly what i want,
i thought that i could keep up with everything, but
everything's just falling apart.,
not really falling apart,, it's not that bad..
but i don't have it all pieced together perfectly either.
and that frustrates me.
i bet you're wondering what the hell i'm talking about.
but what fun is it if i just tell straight up?
it's hard to have a little bit of everything and try to keep up with it.
it's very, very hard.

it rained today(=

i usually hate when it rains, but today was perfect!
i mean, after it rained.. it was all fresh and cleann, i LOVED it.
and the sun came back out :)


wowww. today was such a hassle.
i came back at 11 from Walt Disney Concert Hall in LA last night,..
went to my piano teachers house in LA for a lesson right after school to find that she's not there.
apparently, she told me to come to the APU ( Azusa Pacific Univ.) instead.
so then, from there i headed over to APU on local cus it was rush hour -_-
and i had a 30 min. lesson because i had to come back to school by 6 for performing arts rehearsal. HECTIC, huh.
rehearsal was pretty good.
all this for music.
but i don't entirely hate it.
being busy keeps my mind off some things,
which makes life so much simpler.
so that's that.


wow, time goes by so fast.
do you realize we're already like 3 months into the schoolyear?
btw,
the things i absolutely loooove about highschool.
1. FOOD FAIR
2. STUDENT STORE ; all the JUNK food!
3. ORCHESTRA; so many free days to just chill
4. more new people.
5. opportunities

the things i absolutely HATE about highschool.
1. THE STAIRS D:
2. CROWDED
3. homework
4. going to every period instead of block schedule
5. not being able to see everyone everyday for enough :(


butt ,, i guess all these things sorta balance themselves out ?

it hit me.

you can't know everything.
there's always gonna be unanswered questions and i guess i'll just have to live with it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mgob5afanUg


"I will be still and know you are God"

why.

these days when i dream, i can't remember anything.
all i remember is whether it was good or bad.
and sometimes,,,, who was in it..or not so much anymore.

i bombed my sectional thing at intermezzo yesterday, so i better practice violin.
oh AND piano.
because i totally f-ed it today for the teacher from USC.
fffffff.
but at least she likeed my second piece.
(=


p.s.,
where have all the good men gone?
LOL.
<3

time to get those boots out :D

wow.
today was pretty fun.
first, school was pretty dang fffun.
PE, pacers, i got 86-88 cus harrison stopped counting --x
so my legs hurt :/
i got my math test back, and i got a pretty good grade :)
FRENCH. FRENCH. FRENCH CLASS.
HHEHE.
we had a party today & i ate sheetload of crepe :)
justkidding, only two.
but i filled it with LOTS and LOTS of nutella&fruit .
...
went to lesson after school, came back to school to find that june was already OFFICIALLY announced as hc PRINCESS! :)
anddd i missed the russian trio thing,.. :(
but i got to hang w/ carissa :D
such a cute girl, love her, loooove talking to her <33
it was sooo cold today.
i feel like winters right around the corner.
gotta get those boots and coats out , eh ?
hahaha, i wanna go snowboarding.
okaaay, i'm donee. bbye!

growing up..?

nah, i couldn't not write one today.
so, it turns out.. i wasn't the only one being dragged to the dentist.
i saw sabrina as she walked out..
and erica and jason j were at different dentists.
but still.
weird huh.
i hate the dentist. soo. much.
like with a passion?
when i was young, i used to run away and they had to chain me down -_-
oh man.. i cried so much.
and then i remember the last time i went there was.. when i got my teeth pulled out. like 3 in one day,,, i waited by the counter .. and then i .,.. collapsed.
idk why i faint so much.
haaaaaaha.
but today, all i got was a cleaning..
i got all nervous and worried ... until i had to wait like an hour and thirty minutes -_-
then, i got all impatient and .. i just wanted to get it over with.
they said i have one cavity but i didnt have to do it today.

we went to pho after.
i love # 22 large w/ no cilantro.
HAHA. the waiters know our family.
funny.
and i should really be studying for sat list 1-5 test tomorrow,, but i don't feel like it.
i never get to sleep before 12.
i miss fourth&fifth grade.
so much.
you have no idea.

just some.

just some people give me such a hard time.
wow, i came home to find my PARENTS watching tv.
its like once in a lifetime thing.
i have an ap book report due and math test tomorrow.
i'm so screwed.,
heard the book report takes like 5 hours.
shet.
+ i needa memorize 3 pages for piano.
today feels like a pho weather.
but too bad, i have performing arts.
ohshet, i have performing arts --x
UGH.
life sucks.
justkidding,
its okay.

emotions, emotions, emotions.

i wasn't ready for these emotions

that are taking over me

i swear i'm stronger than these emotions

but they're taking over me

-gabe bondoc.

the air is getting colder.

i don't know why i'm letting this bother me so much.
i don't realllly care, but i keep thinking about it.
whatever...
i'm gonna keep myself busy & concentrated on piano.
if i can..
i love french.
we're having a free day with crepes&other food.
ohyeah, we moved seats for english.
i don't hate it, but i don't love it either.
i wish we could have our old seats back.
:(
bbye.

cheese ritz bitz :D

i woke up early today cus i wanted to eat before leaving to church.
i just. LOVED the weather today....AND everything ABOUT today!
i had to leave right after service&bible study, butttttt i still FINALLY got to "catch up" with ARIEKIM<3
and she showed me the note that we wrote on for Dr.Alvino's(?) testimony.
hehehheheeh <33333
i wish we can hang out sometime soon,,, cus i just looooove being with her :))))
so after church, my mom&i headed over to the mall,
and i was VERRRy much satisfied with my shopping
i usually hate going shopping cus i never find what i want to.
but this one was reaaaally good :)
theeen, i came home and left almost right away to intermezzo rehearsal.
ohman.
i got into first violin! :)
YAY!
HAHA, call me a nerd, but i was so happy ;D
andddd that's about it.
i loveeee the weather, so i'm hoping it stays this way ..
wow.
school tomorrow..
seat change in moskovitz :(
HAVE A NICE DAY, EVERYONE :)

i forgot..

to say,
i finished The Notebook yesterday..
and i was expecting a verrrry sad ending.. but they just died together.
how sadd right?
cus EVERYONE dies, one way or the other..
but overall, it was a pretty good movie.
similar to a lot of korean dramas, but it was cute ^^

chipotle>tofu?

i haaate beans :)*


my feet are sooo cold!
& it's my first time in forever to wear long pajamasss.


today,
i went to the harvest festival with friends.
it was fun (=
we rode the ... uhh.. this ROLLERCOASTER that goes around in a circle like 10 times &.. i gotta admit, i was scared to death. not that i'm scared of rollercoasters ( i ride six flags rollercoasters!) , but i was sooo scared my skirt would go up or downn.
stupid me,
wore a skirt to a carnival -_-
anyhoo.
our second ride was.. dragon swing thing :D
i was the only one screaming and puttting my hands up,, LAME.
and theeeeeen i forced everyone to go on the apples !!
HAHAHAHAH, we were spinning before they even started it :D
and then.. everyone blamed me cus it got boring..
then.
we got hungry & walked to the chipotle anddddddd i REALLLLLY wanted soon doo boo ( korean tofu soup) but no one wanted it except daniel.
so.,. chipotle it was...
and i didnt even buy , michelle offered to sharee (:
it wasn't as great as everyone says it is.
or maybe it was just cus i rreeeally wanted soon doo boo.
oh yeah, 1+1=2.
scientifically, algebraically, whatever-cally proven , HARRISON.
i think i'm gonna get sick.
i'm still cold.
and my left eye is swelling up..
it hurts every time i blink.
ow.
haha.
hah.
ow.
okay, g'nightt<33

today

"today i will be happier than a bird with a fly."



generally, i was in a good mood today(:
first period...isn't quite as bad anymore.
secondddddd, orchestra; i totally f-ed my audition, but its okay :D
and then i went out & shared my cookies with daphne & cecilia!
daphne & i have this COOL handshake ;)
third periodddd, i lost in racquetball pretty baddd cus harrison didn't play with me D:
fourttth, we had a sub & he looked like BOBBY LEE.
5th, i had to crawl under a table to get my pencil case back from michelle -_-
I'M GOING TO MISS LEANINA WHEN WE GET MOVED NEXT WEEK D:
i actually LIKE being around her, even though she calls me all these different kinds of names i've never been called before...anyhoo, i'm really gonna miss her D:
and the rest too, even the boy who put icyhot where he really shouldn't have..
6th, oral exam was .. pretty okay. for once, it was hella quiet cus jenna got moved FINALLY.
HAHA.
well,

tomorrow, i have violin lesson in the morning, thennn maybe hit harvest w/ some friends!
& sundayy... intermezzo rehearsals starrrrtt :((
but good thing it got moved to 3:30 instead of 7-8
yayy !
goodbye.
<3